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Falling, crying, screaming, dying, reaching preaching, searching, screeching, gone beyond, can't respond, creating, debating, fleeing, sedating, running, dreaming, so demeaning, pushing, crushing, freeing, rushing, sighing, denying, screaming, dying. ~zomb

Damn tired of waiting Damn scared to ask Words want to come But there's nothing worth saying You're burning away at me Eating my heart Acid mauling my mind Words straining to be set free Are you waiting for a certain sign? How clear do I have to make it? Scream in your ear? Will you be mine? ~zomb

Disapearing behind a cloud, Disappearing into the crowd Don't want to go out without a fight But I'm not sure if what I want is right ~zomb

My body feels like lead I'd rather be in bed Nothing can besaid About the aching exhaustion I feel Shaking from my lack of sleep Collapsing in a human heap All my energy has seeped into where i lay to rest Can't keep my eyes open Through all my classes I'm hoping That I can keep on coping With this pure exhaustion ~zomb

I accidentily cut myself today and as i was watching the blood well up, I thought 'Wow, human's are extremely fragile vessles.' So anyway, with this thought came 'Maybe we need to evolve to become more resilient.' In my Biology class we're doing reports on environmental issues. Mine was overpopulation and someone else's was global warming. In my research I found that becasue of overpopulatin there is less food going around so babies are being born with more and more defects, also casued by polution, which relates to global warming. I was thinking, with global warming there will be natrual disaters, which will kill 1000s maybe even millions. B

He makes me happy he makes me sad he makes me feel amazing he makes me feel useless He twists my emotions he breaks my heart he bends my soul he mends my spirit Hes a shattered mirror that reflects me whole He holds me close he avoids my looks He drives me crazy he keeps me sane he makes me want scream but i can't let anyone hear it I want to tell him all my secrets I want to keep them close I want him to never know I want to know his secrets I want him to stay out of my head My thoughts revolve around him And i just don't see why i'm so attracted

Abandon, alone left behind with no one to hear me screaming crying praying for dying letting the dark take hold putting on my happy face for the people passing me by waiting for someone to turn around the sign says one way break the rules for once just don't leave me here to struggle along with this fear weighing me down my nightmare finally come true caught in a web lost on an island barricaded in on all sides collapsing, relapsing I try to say I don't care but I'm so scared scrambling to grab something someone Pretending I'm fine slowly falling into hysteria wishing someone would see theres something wrong despret

Crack, snap, crinkle, crumble 'Be patient and prosperity will come knocking at your door.' The wise slip of paper said and nothing more But I have to wonder How patient do I have to be? What prosperity? Does it mean the same to me? The vague implications that everyone sees that everyone gets relates connects resents Does everyone have it coming? Am I as unique as I thought? Can I stand out? The way I want? I pitch ideas and no one responds I speak my mind but to everyone else it goes beyond I live my petty life and I have to wonder I can be patient but for how much longer? ~zomb

burning up collapsing inward fighting to keep the words in keep my life together head spinning stretched thin collapsing before its time no time for sleep im in way to deep to get out now im dont know how itd just be to hard ill keep on going but i dont know for how long ill have to sleep some time just not now i cant afford it now busy way to busy for one person accomplishments are what i need now but will my body survive will my mind stay whole? we already know im insane but how much will remain once im free of restraining walls pulling myself up takes a lot of strength i used it all to get halfway up quickly no

wishing for night praying for flight reaching up beyond the clouds getting away from suffocating crowds breaking free of all my walls leaving behind the deafening halls keeping myself relativly sane hoping that my mind will remain untouched and whole repairing a shattered soul pulling out of a bottomless revine nothing is quite what it seems hoping that i still make sense hoping i can finally get some rest maybe the struggle will finally end and my angels will fianlly send something down that i can grasp a friendly hand i can clasp finally done with all my screaming finally falling in the land of the dreaming ~zomb

I miss those summer days when nothing was serious, but every moment meant the world to me. Warm nights, loitering at the train station. Sunny afternoons, walking to no where. I miss those summer days when your smile was brighter than the open sky, and your eyes held all the secrets in the world, reflecting each bird and cloud that passed over our heads. I want to go back to when we were perfectly content with sitting in the grass, holding hands, and watching the night pass by. I miss laughing until we can't breathe, and bantering over silly things only because we have nothing better to do. I'd gladly go back to the day we g